I manage to make my lazy butt get out of bed and go running. 1.5 miles. Not bad. I actually felt stronger as I ran. I had to take a few breaks, to be honest though. But I do not worry too much about taking breaks as long as in the end I run a good distance. My eyes were bloodshot from the heat and sweat running into my eyes which only added to my feeling like I accomplished something today. Than why am I feel so depressed now?...

I do not know how my sister does it but every time I am home alone all day I go nuts. Maybe it's coming back from the Gambia where I spent every minute with someone. Maybe I'm just being weird. Maybe it's cause I do not have a job this summer. Whatever the reason I wish it would stop. These last days I have felt so good about myself. In in just a few hours I'm back t how I felt a few weeks ago. I don't get it...

Outside of this depressing evening I've been doing some research on modeling. Yes, modeling. Depsite today, I've been feeling more confident and felt that I needed a new hobby to try out. I emailed a lady about local pagents and I've been joining some groups about modeling. I need someone to take some headshots and full length photos of me and than go from there. Who knows...maybe something will pan out from it. I think I'm just in need of a new adventure.

It's been awhile so I figured it was time to update.

Just got from a couple days visiting friends at school. It was amazing. Enjoyed every second of it. One of my friends just got back from studying from Australian so it was the first time all my close friends from school have been together in 6 months. In some ways nothing has changed and I find that extremely comforting.

One of the most interesting things about this weekend is the battle I had with my hair. I go to school right by the water so it's almost impossible to resist the temptation to totally submerge yourself in St. Mary's River. The aftermath? My Dominican Blowout went totally out the window. My hair reverted back to it's bushy self before I could blink an eye. My solution. Bobby pins and a green flower my best friend bought from me. The outcome? Perfection. It actually came out looking good and everyone else thought it looked good to. I explain to my friends the whole "going natural" process and they were actually excited about it haha.

It's nice to know that my friends (and even my boyfriend) support me on his hair journey. The best part is that these last couple days I have really seen a change within myself. Even with my hair going nuts I have felt more confident these last few days than I have in awhile. I manage to work out while at school and I even worked out today. I'm taking advantage of all the things I have. I'm using the Body by Glamour website. I using our Wii Fit to just do something fun (plus it weighs you). I have to admit though that I was disappointed that according to the Wii Fit I have gained .04 lbs but I'm not letting that slow me down. I just have to work harder. Running tomorrow here I come!

First entry...exciting!

So here is a new blog. Why did I start this blog you may ask? For the website I am working on called Napturally Beautiful. Will anyone care enough about my website? Who knows. I just wanted to keep some type of documentation for this transformation I'm trying to put myself through.

I do not have a job for the last month of summer and need something to occupy my time. I thought what better time to improve myself than the present right? So here it is. The start of a new outlook on my life. I'm trying to transform myself both inside and out. How will I do this? Well these are my goals...

1) Lose 7 pounds...yes, 7.
2) Tone up...I do not need a 6-pack but a tight stomach will do
3) Increase my self-confidence...I should find myself beautiful both inside and outside
4) Develop better relationships with my friends
5) Develop a better relationship with my family
6) Eat healthier
7) Stop buying into mainstreams definition of beauty and grow out my relaxed hair and be all natural!

Let the games begin...