I manage to make my lazy butt get out of bed and go running. 1.5 miles. Not bad. I actually felt stronger as I ran. I had to take a few breaks, to be honest though. But I do not worry too much about taking breaks as long as in the end I run a good distance. My eyes were bloodshot from the heat and sweat running into my eyes which only added to my feeling like I accomplished something today. Than why am I feel so depressed now?...

I do not know how my sister does it but every time I am home alone all day I go nuts. Maybe it's coming back from the Gambia where I spent every minute with someone. Maybe I'm just being weird. Maybe it's cause I do not have a job this summer. Whatever the reason I wish it would stop. These last days I have felt so good about myself. In in just a few hours I'm back t how I felt a few weeks ago. I don't get it...

Outside of this depressing evening I've been doing some research on modeling. Yes, modeling. Depsite today, I've been feeling more confident and felt that I needed a new hobby to try out. I emailed a lady about local pagents and I've been joining some groups about modeling. I need someone to take some headshots and full length photos of me and than go from there. Who knows...maybe something will pan out from it. I think I'm just in need of a new adventure.