Last post I definitely reached a low point. Things are a little better but definitely lower than when I first started on this whole journey. What's new?

I haven't gone running in a week or so. Running is just not my cup of tea. I feel self-conscious and I find it very boring. Instead I try to hop on the Wii Fit whenever I get a chance. Do a little cardio and strength training. I've MAYBE lost 2 lbs. Weight fluctuates so it's hard to say. I was trying to lose 7 but that's kind of failing. Maybe once I get back to school and I have a gym to go to I'll be more motivated.

My hair journey? I'm hitting that bump in the road. The more my hair grows the more I hate the different textures. I'm really trying to hold out. I may end up cutting it before I go back to school though. Part of me feels SOOO ready. The other part? I'm afraid. Which in the end makes me think I am not ready to do it.

I thought about entering a pageant but I thought let's get real. I do not have the guts to do that. Plus I do not have the time to dedicate to perfecting some sort of talent. Maybe if I was not trying to do it all on my own I'd have the guts to do it. Instead I'm thinking of modeling. Which is kind of backwards, I know. When you model you are scrutinized to a T. But I'm bored with my life and want something fun. I've taken a few photos and sent them off to some agencies. Will it lead anywhere? I HIGHLY doubt it but it's a fun thought. I even put up some photos on this one website. Check it out:

http://www.onemodelplace.com/member.cfm?ID=415309

Being at home is starting to get to me. I'm running out of things to do. I'm running out of money. I've trying to to find things to fill up my time. My new hobbies?

kgb

Heard of it? It's a sort of text knowledge service. You can text 542542 and ask them anything you want. Agents, like myself, answer questions. It does not make much but it's better than nothing right? You should check it out if you are sitting at home.

Music
I finally caved and bought a new adapter for my keyboard. Trying to start playing again. It always made me feel content. The great thing is it's like riding a bike. You may get rusty but you never forget.

That's all for now. Keep a look out for updates.